Beautiful Chaos
Original Art by Gina Welds Hulse
Everyone has times in their life when they feel demotivated, lost, and unhappy. You're in a rut, and you don't know how to get out of it. Life may keep piling it on.
My life was no exception. I thought I had it all planned out. Life was going great....as I had planned. I had my dream job as an Art Teacher, and was very involved in many community projects. I had many art gallery shows in the works, and some already going on. So what could go wrong?
For many years, I was concerned about some strange feelings in my hands and feet. I had already been diagnosed with lung and heart issues, but these numbing and tingling episodes were unnerving to me. My doctor suggested that I get my B-12 levels tested. They came back very low, and I was also diagnosed with pernicious anemia, so I was started on B-12 shots, but also sent to a neurologist, where it was determined (to make a long story short) I had peripheral neuropathy.
A few weeks later I was diagnosed with lupus as well. Ever had days when it seems that things could not possibly get any worse? That was how I felt.
I found myself later on a downhill spiral in serious depression. Nothings that made me happy before was working. Nothing that I was passionate about thrilled me. I plunged into major depression. Several weeks later I decided to head to a Psychiatrist.
To top it off, I still had fairly young children, two in high school and the youngest in elementary school. I still had to be a mom.
2016 was probably the most challenging year of my life, and I have had some challenging years. There were days when I felt like I was at the end of my rope, but I made it through.
To make a long story short. I gradually, over the last few years, worked my way back to the strong warrior woman I knew that I was.
Some days you think that there is no possible solution anymore. But look at this painting, in such a desperate condition, such Beautiful Chaos ....remember that the light will always find a way to reach you anyway.
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